It's hard to see people you grew up with visiting different cities, exploring the world, getting an education you cannot even afford to fill out the application forms for and building an international network of friends and potential work / business associates.
It's hard because you're still sitting in the same city you grew up in, it's littered with lecherous men, you're constantly watching your back, you live a boderline middle class poverty life where you spend your time and energy trying not to go bankrupt. Because you know what bankrupt can look like, you're living it anyway and you're scared. You want to get out of here but you can never leave because you cannot afford it.
It's hard because you're still sitting in the same city you grew up in, it's littered with lecherous men, you're constantly watching your back, you live a boderline middle class poverty life where you spend your time and energy trying not to go bankrupt. Because you know what bankrupt can look like, you're living it anyway and you're scared. You want to get out of here but you can never leave because you cannot afford it.
